Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!!!!

It has been a long time since I have posted on here. I am just going to come out and I will say it is because I have been busy with my studies for my online classes and other stuff going on in my life. Merry Christmas my readers. I mean to say that in a couple of weeks it will my my birthday and yes I am excited for it. My aunt that lives in cedar city brought me and my mom a christmas tree because we did not get one. I can't believe that my cousin went on his mission on the 12th of this month. I am so tired of all that is going on in my life. Between studies and mom on my back 24/7 about everything. For christmas I wanted to get a Ipod Nano and I was really looking forward to it but it is not going to happen because my mom is so pissed off at right now for getting in a big hurry on my english final that I had 2 days ago and so I am also mad at her. Sometimes I feel like she compairs me to my sister. Oh how I wish that it was just me and my dad and no mom on my last nerve. I told her the other day that I just feel unwanted within my family. Everyone revalles around my sister, and I am left out in the cold. My mom is so angry with me because of my final on my english grade. You know I haven't even got my permit yet, I've been too lazy to go and get it. If you have an older sibling that you feel is perfect in every way then you will understand how I feel. I just have to much stress right now for the past 3 months and when I am so stressed out it comes from my mom wanting me to do good and plus trying the best that I can. If I don't pass the retake of my English and History finals then I will be doing the packets for this semester. I wish that my mom would just  let me be whenever it comes to my studies, for Christmas I really want is a Ipod Nano and guess what I am not getting it and yes I will be upset when it comes the end of school and into summer. My mom took my MP3 player away from in September and now my life is incomplete without my music from my little ipod. I am so much misery right now because well my mom did not take anything away from my sister and she is taking everything away from me. My life is unfair right now.  I just wish that I my dad would of helped me in 6th and 7th grade instead of lying to my mom when it came to doing homework. I am like my dad in so many ways. Plus I just feel empty without him being here.